QUERY: WHY AM I SO BITTER AGAINST LIFE?

"When a thing's gone, it's gone. It's over and done with. Let it go, then! Ignore it, and comfort yourself, if you do want comforting, with the thought that you never do recover the same thing as you lose. It's always a new thing. The moment it leaves it's changed. Why, that's even true of a hat you chase after; and I don't mean superficially - I mean profoundly speaking...
I have made it a rule of my life never to regret and never to look back. Regret is an appalling waste of energy, and no one who intends to be a writer can afford to indulge it. You can't get it into shape; you can't build on it; it's only good for wallowing in. Looking back, of course, is equally fatal to Art. It's keeping yourself poor. Art can't and won't stand poverty."
- Je ne parle pas français, Katherine Mansfield