AND I TRY, OH MY GOD DO I TRY! I TRY ALL THE TIME IN THIS INSTITUTION

Read through a story I wrote when I was 18 (unfinished story, haven't read it since), and since this is how I'm feeling today, allow me to quote myself:

"I have two lists of things that I am sad about. The first one is a list of the things that I'm really sad about. The second one is a list of things I'm just sad about.

Whenever I feel really sad about something, I try to consult my second list and try to be sad about something I'm just sad about.

You would think I would consult my happy list for that but I haven't done such a list."

http://www.guardian.co.uk/culture/2011/jun/17/life-writing-margaret-drabble-interview